kayponders

Recently,

i learned few lessons about life.

whether from the experience from daily life

or from the stories of my friends

i can't help but wonder

" Is life all about compromising?"

compromise with the status quo

   compromise with the reality

     compromise with the fact

       compromise with the stupid "thing" called  "life"

i once thought i would never compromise with any difficulty

and give in my belief and dreams.

but now, to my great fear,

i may be on the way to compromise with the reality.

making the decision not for myself, but for others

i now realize " human beings live for others, not for themselves."

Yet, WHEN?? i can breathe freely under the sky.

it's like returning debt to a creditor

it's like i owe someone a lot of money

so i got to work my ass off to repay them.

oh! that's how we call compromising

cause i'm in debt.

phew~ is it really something that i want?

Shit!!! when do i start to compromise with the thing i thought i would never do?

i'm afraid i would soon forget all my dreams

or forget the opinioned, quirky girl i used to be.

i read about socialization in education is to teach students the rules of society.

FUCK!! i hate those rules, but i may be the spreader of the fucking rules.

here is compromising again.

Well.. if i refuse any compromising in my life

i might as well live on the deserted island by myself. it would be better.

For real, when i got old,

i want to move to a tropical island and live by myself.

just watch the crystal blue ocean rising and falling.

oh boy, how i love spacing out. kkk

all i can say that

" i'm not okay with a mediocre life or me "

" i'm not okay with a life that is not mine"

what if i want less in my life

or just embrace compromising,

              embrace socialization,

                  embrace my debt

                                           FUCK

this is life all about.

but please Kay,

don't compromise with the way you are, Okay?