kayponders

There are things in life that i know i can never manage to change.

Everyday, I've tried my best to make things better, trying to keep my chin up, trying to be positive.

What do i get? Another endless helplessness and disappointment.

As time goes by, i've definitely grown up, but a....it's like a tour bus that goes back to the same spot every hour.

What have changed so far?

i just need some space to take a rest and  feel free to do "some"thing i want, which may seem a luxury for me.

on my way to the bus station

i thought about someone once said this to me.

" You must have wanted to be free." the clerk said

" How do you know that?" i was fairly surprised that a stranger could easily know my deepest secret.

" 'Cause all you chose is blue, I can see that you love freedom."

The conversation between me and the stranger (clerk) took place when i was in elementary school.   

It has been more than 10 years, but i still remember it very well.

Sometimes, strangers can unconciously decipher our code that we never want others to know. Strange huh?

Yeap, freedom. what is freedom anyway?

Can i leave it all behind and embrace freedom?

Can i ?

May i ?

Should i ?

Now i know life is the synonym of paradox.

The perfect world that i depicted in my mind can never compare with the real world.

God~ i hope there is some prophet can whisper in my ears

Tell me what to do.

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